Booked out after two weeks in camp... heck, they said it was the honeymoon week and it was suppose to be smooth-sailing.. I can't imagine what will happen after we book in... Had a lot of fun there(ya right), nopes... Dun really like it there, dun feel like taking orders from a bunch of ppl whose bones i could so easily break... but there's no choice. Meet some really interesting ppl...
And i dreamt of her, not that her from NYP, that can go to hell, no... I mean the HER from my secondary school days, i can't remember her voice, i can't remember her face... the only thing i remembered is her smile, like blooming flowers of spring, so beautiful, so full of life... and all those feelings that i thought i had gotten rid of came back, striking me like a bolt of lightning into the hell that i had created for myself and spent so much effort climbing out of...
i thought of her throughout the 2 weeks, even in training, eating, and even while sleeping...
i'm thinking of her even now...
She said its impossible between us, after all, i'm an real ugly pece of fat shit while she's a goddess, i wanted to believe her...
i wanted to obey her...
i really do...
Monday, June 29, 2009
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